It is still for him....
For him, I rescheduled my planned activities,
For him, I skipped my Uni's cultural night so that he could ask me out if he wants to,
For him, I told everyone that I am not free this weekend so that I could give him all my time,
For him, I got disappointed when he fails to turn up,
For him, I weep!
And all I got is a simple text message, telling me again and again for two days in a row that he can't make it because he was stuck in the jungle the 1st day during his hike, and he has a family gathering on the next day.
But everytime he stands me up, he will make sure he tells me when is the nxt time he would love to see me. This gives me a false hope, that he doesnt sees me as just a friend, as he constantly tries to make up for me, i.e. he just promises to buy movie tix for the both of us, n dinner & drinks on him this coming wednesday. I think that I am experienced enough to see and determine what is pure friendship and whats not.
The more we contact each other, the more I want him back. Thank God for my ego and great selective memory. What he did to me, how he gave up on our relationship, how sulky he made me feel back then stops me from showing him that I still care, I still love, and I miss him.
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