Fabulous Birthday Celebration... MINE :)

So much for other people's birthday parties... it's time to show u mine now :)
Really tired and lazy to update on my blog, working life tires me big time.... it sucks la, I miss being a student now!!!!

Spent my 22nd birthday at 21kitchen n bar @ Changkat last year with friends that I can barely put them in my list of close friends.

This year, I've decided to spend my 23rd birthday with my closest friends (it fails eventually).
Splurged quite a little out of budget, on booze, food, and accommodation rental. It's only once a year, can't whine much on the $ ive spent, innit? :P

Again, my bestest good friends helped out alot, benson, cherina and larry, im sorry for troubling u guys, but im sure i did make it up to u babes with all the fun we've had there! ;)

I made all my party attendees to drive to Bayu Beach Resort, PORT DICKSON
Of course with great food sponsored by Hokano Japanese Restaurant and Vin's chicken wings

 before the drinking session begins, lovely bangles  from BonBon  xoxo

and here's the hazardous booze!
 

No longer sober after downing all the tequila shots! Noticed the babe with a dragon tattoo? that's the crazy woman, Jo!

Our beach side bbq party...
 

Happy family :)

Oh, my party is so awesome, that even some random dudes crashed in! :) LOLs

It's great that these two years of singlehood i get to meet alot of new friends, bitches, bastards, and have been spending heaps more time on myself rediscovering what I want in life... but yea, I'm bored of being single already. 

*hint* feel free to intro some potential prospects to me pls... :P

My usual weekdays...

It seems like my standard working hour frm 9am to 530 pm has been extended to.. the earliest 9pm.
Being in the advertising industry, this is what I've already expected before I decided to apply for the internship program, so... Can't complain much, innit?

Was so happy to be able to go off from work at 9pm earlier, as I thought I will have to stay for longer.
Managed to head to the gym right after work, ran 5km and burned 350cals... Feel even better after the steam bath. Ahhhh.... Seems like I have already adapted to the working life.

I am slowly enjoying my current life as a working adult, it feels kinda relaxing without having to rush for my assignments just like back in the uni days.
But, still... I am looking forward to the weekend to redeem more sleep!

Nite peeps! xoxo

House Party! Give me More, baby! :)

Gagak's birthday is actually just a few weeks behind kumar's.
This party is kinda far back dated... back in early Sept. Pardon me, for both my laziness and lack of time to blog. :P

It's a shame that I didnt bring my camera along to his party... Here's the best i could find...

Lucky him, 3 cakes for his big 24th~

The Birthday Boy being showered by creamy cake love

Of course, the rules applied. The birthday boy gotta get drunk.. and he did!!! he even did the thriller crawl from his bed to the toilet to puke. Too bad, pig head and I and the others who were in the room was too tipsy to realize what's happening until it's too late... otherwise, I would've share the video here, and bet it would give u a great laugh... :)

Here's the DJ of the day, DJ DDLY aka Doh Doh Lan Yeh ,
great mix of music, he rocked the party.

Surely, no alcohol session can be missed....

Not sure where's the birthday boy when we were actually toasting for his birthday....
Too many drunk people around, everyone couldnt be bothered to look for the star of the day.
Too bad :P

This is surely the only party that I've attended with a room full of guys... Too bad, all of them are taken...

Amazing enough... I can't find a single picture of myself for this party... Aite, my narcissism should be repressed at times. LOL

Awesome people like me have GREAT PIG & DOG CREW MEMBERS

Larry Lim aka Pig Head and his girlfriend,
Sabrina aka Scooby
trying out my first homemade Seafood Pizza
which I have to admit... tasted awful :(

I haven't been blogging much about what's happening in my life for quite awhile...
I don't even know where to begin with.

Having been single for more than a year now, gives me time to know and discover more about myself.
It also gives me the time to mingle and get to know all sort of people from across the globe. (That includes guys that I've been with) *giggles* Yeah, talk about going international.... :P

I've met very bitchy, slutty and negative people but also very awesome, caring and true friend materials people too.. and that awesome bunch, I am referring to...

One of my truest bestest friends that I am glad
I've met, Cherina aka Kumar!!!

Can't miss this joker, Vin Ong aka
Gagak, White Chick, Baguette.
I am now interning in the same company that he works at...
Undoubtedly, see and gossip with him everyday...

It's only with this group of friends....

   I share with them my well-kept secrets....

      Have decent gatherings (instead of partying) without alcohol most of the time....

         The first one that I look for the moment i break down....

            I share with them if I have any goodies....

                 I care enough to know their problems regardless of how tired and depressed I am...

Our home cooked food at Gagak's place :)
That beef roll with asparagus's awesome, innit? I made that!!! *proud*

Looking forward to more outings with this great bunch of friends!

Growing up as an ADULT :(

It has been awhile since I last updated my blog.
Have been very busy with events, my birthday, assignments and exams....
Now that it's all over, I am interning at an advertising firm, and yes, I have no time to celebrate aft exam at all :(

Working life is really boring, it's like a social life suicide.
I wake up to get ready to work at 715am and usually gt off work and reach home at about 10pm or later.
By the end of the day, I've no energy to do anything else but to sleep.

Thank God, this wouldnt last long. My internship ends on Feb 10th! 2.5 months to go before I can resume my life as a student again and hence, my SOCIAL life!!!! :)

Total Darkness at the black Arthur's Day Celebration!

Not a Guinness fan! Never like Stouts.
But I love happening event.
So when Vin asked if I'm interested to grab the free tix, I was so hyped up! Can't wait for a massive concert especially from Taio Cruz....

Event was on Fri and who would have thought that the traffic will be that horrendous?
I got stuck in the traffic for more than an hour to the event site. And no, this is not really the sickly part.
Worst scenario of the year, was that I got stuck in my car at the same spot for more than 2hours when I was tryin to leave to Zouk for my second round partying!
All cars were idle and everyone was going berserk with the bad traffic control!

Rina and I at the worst party of the year

My conclusion of the Arthur's Day Celebration:
Performances were bad,
Crowd was bad,
No free flow of drinks,
Maxis wasn't providing me any services, and so I was stranded with no phone to be used,
Traffic was madly terrible!
Such a waste of my time, and petrol while gt stuck in the massive traffic!

At least I gt to watch the firework display when I gt stuck in my car. I've to say, that was the best part of the night...

Rina Jie's Birthday Celebration!

 Just a day before my dad's birthday was Rina's birthday party at KL Plaza Suite on 20 Aug!

We've been looking forward to it, you know how house party gonna end up with?! Nope, skip the sex... I mean how ppl gonna make fool of themselves when they got alcohol overdosed!

That's the birthday girl, the one in the longest dress!
Us, toasting for her 24th birthday with tequila shots in our hand....

At times, when im intoxicated... I couldn't care less about being a lady, I might not be that refined... but I am still me,

Downing the bttl is much more fun than drinking frm the tiny shot glasses! :P

I was late to the party, and from the way I drink the tequila... I was intoxicated in just 15mins!
The alcohol in my blood set my temperature high... and so, I stripped! Yes, I stripped... in a room and changed to another shorter pant and comfortable top! LOL :)

This is the moment! The moment of INTOXICATION! the drunkards, poser, wild party animal and a lil too "high" birthday girl spotted :)

The party din last long to me... I got there late, and was pressured to drink the tequilas n other unknown liquor like a fish... Guess my consciousness lasted only for about 2hours at the party before I went K.O.
Regain my consciousness at about 5am but I feel that there is such a huge gap in my memory. Can't really remember what happened, but I am sure I was in the good hands!

These two dearies accompanied me till I sobered up. I think that I still look fine despite the massive hangover that I was experiencing :) *thumbs up*

Rina, I had a blast there, hope u had a great bday celebration this year! xoxo

Fun unlimited!!!

Ever since the submission of my last assignment, I felt such a relieve and needed to chill so badly!
I've been out drinking, partying, binge eating and travelling since last Wednesday to Saturday, 4 days consecutively. Pardon me, my liver!

Lets start with the ladies nite on Wednesday in KL...
As I've been whining non-stop that I'm deadly broke lately, I initially refused to go out with dear Shanny when she  asked me to. Being the understanding, kind and generous her, she promised me an all-paid expense nite out with and by her, so it gaves me no reason to stay at home making love with my books, innit? LOL

White wine to go with MarketHall Signature Salad @ The Bedroom lounge and club in Pavillion, 5th floor.
I know I've posted this pix in my previous post but this is the only pix that I have. So please, bear with me. LOL

 I love the music played in The Bedroom. To me, it's like the best place to be chilled at for now. But since we went there quite early, abt 9ish.. the crowd was pretty dead.
Oh, for my ego boost, I think I'd love to tell the world here that the guys who sat at our next table were so interested in Shanny and I :) To the extent that they sent their gf over to be their wingman! But then again, I was in the mood to play hard to get, so nuthing spicy happened eventually. We did not even exchange names.

At about 12am... Both Shanny and I drove to Zouk Club, and this time round, I signed her in as my guest using my membership card. :)

Reached home at abt 5am and slept frm 6am to 3pm the next day. Given choice I won't wake up that early, but Hon En called me...

6 hours after waking up on Thursday...

I'm at St. Patrick, Ipoh drinking with my long time friend, Ryiko!
Crowd sucks, there were lotsa old uncles who pretended to be in their 20s. Why can't they behave like how they shud at their age?!
P.s. As according to the local, St. Patrick is the most happening drinking place in Ipoh, I'm so glad that I live in KL! LOL

Do u think that I'll stay at the same place if the crowd is that bad?!

Hell No! We bar-hopped to Havens, another bar which is like 5mins away from St. Patrick! Notice my changed of outfit? I changed it in Ryiko's car while it was on the move! LOL

Drank until 3ish and we all woke up at 7am coz hottie Ryiko needs to get ready to work by 7.30am and as we were staying over at her place, we too hv to get ready at 7am!
Despite the headache that I've to endures, I make sure that I stayed awake throughout the drive from Ipoh to Penang as Hon-En looks really tipsy still.

Couple of hours later and here we are at Mama's Nyonya @ Penang, the food tastes good but it can be better if it was well heated and not ready made.

My welcome drink @ Park Royal Hotel, again this is an all expense paid trip by Mr. Tan aka the timber :)

Our room! We actually requested for 2 single beds but those rooms are occupied, but guess what, Hon en Used the pillows as the benchmark to separate out our spaces! LMAO I stil can't stop laughing recalling it now.

As this trip is meant to be fun in order for Hon-En to move on from the one same girl he has been after for months....



I called my friend from Penang, Alex to join us for drinks by the beach.

I think we had 4 cocktails, 4 big pints of beers, countless canned Carlsberg, some Absolute Vodka and Black Label back in the room even before the sun sets!

at approx 10pm after dinner and yes I was still very tipsy from the drinks I had by the beach since 3pm, we arrived here at Mois. Again, I downed heaps of Moet, black label, beers, and some killer shots! Thank God that I was still capable to walk myself to Hon-En's car at the end of the nite.

That was the end of our Penang Trip, and oh, on my usual Sat nite,  


Zoey and I camwhoring while we are still sober :)

That's Larry aka Chu Tao, the only thorn among the beautiful roses :P

The beautiful ladies, Shanny, Sharon and Sanze <3 @ Zouk







 

My Personal Best ---> Record Breaking!

Instead of going to Tioman Island, Hon-en and I went to Ipoh and Penang instead. I've just reached home  and although I am extremely tired emotionally (from holding myself from throwing tantrum) and physically I find the need to write now. I need to channel all those negative vibes I've generated from the trip with Hon-en aka Stubborn Balak!
Okay, lemme clarify this 1st, Hon-en is a real good friend, in fact some might find him the best husband material ever.. but as a travelling companion, especially mine... he sucks! He is not adventurous, super uptight, has no patience, doesnt know how to live in the moment and TOO disciplined!

There are so many issues that triggered me into my negative vibes, that I think I need to make a list.

1. Today (saturday, the last day of our trip), I broke my personal record by  muting the whole day. I think I've only spoke 10 sentences or less to the Balak.
He annoys me so badly from the way he woke me up. He kept growling and making cow-booing sounds early in the morning simply because he wanted to get to the cafeteria for breakfast early. For God's sake, the breakfast session ends at 10.30am but he was so kiasu that he wants me to get ready by 9.20am! I then woke up very angrily and reluctantly ---> mood spoilt! Have I mentioned that we slept at 5am and drank since 4pm til 3am the day before?! Its holiday, things shud be very laid back, but with Balak... he can never relax!
Oh, on top of that, throughout the trip he kept pressuring me into getting ready faster. I'm a girl and I need time to dress up, can't u guys understand this????? We girls can never get ready in anytime faster than 30mins, at least that's so not me! The more he hurried me, the more pissed off I am and he even affected my mood that I've accidentally draw my eyeliner out of the line and as a result, I need to re-do my make-up and took a way longer time than usual!

2. Drinking and smoking since Wednesday to today (saturday) consecutively!
Yes, u heard me right. Smoking too... As I've said before I am not a smoker, but Ive been pickin up this habit since last month socially. But I smoke a lot of ciggies this week... especially in Penang, simply because I need something in my mouth in order to control myself from throwing tantrum from all those annoyance!

Wednesday Night at Bedroom, Pavillion KL before we head to Velvet at 12.30am :)

My White Wine and Market Hall Signature Salad @ all expense paid by Mizz Shanny Lim :D

This is just the 'appetizer' at Park Royal's (Penang) poolside... 4 pints of beers, 2 can of Carlsberg and 2 cocktails. If I am not mistaken this pix was taken at about 4pm on a Friday evening!

3. The most calls received from one same girlfriend!
Ever since I left KL to Ipoh and Penang trip on thursday, this gf of mine called me at least 15times all in total... besides phone calls, there are endless phone messages and spamming on my fb wall from this one same gf! She drives me up the wall from her constant calls simply just to tell me how boring she is... bla bla bla...!

4. I slept on the same bed with a guy who uses the pillow to separate out our bed spaces! This is really the first one. When I saw the pillow nicely lined up in the middle of the bed, I conveniently took it to hug and Balak was reacting so quickly telling me that those are our 'boundaries' border! Laugh my ass off*

5. Under all these circumstances, and also with the fact that I am on a trip with someone I don't love, who doesnt love me, who are merely a friend who doesnt keep in touch much, a friend who doesnt share much in common.... Its my very first time that I can't wait to get home from a trip!


6. My phone bill! I just received my phone bill for the month of May... and guess how much it is?!!

Holy Shit!!! :( I'm so in debt!!!!

Failures!

I'm supposed to be doing my readings for exam preparation, attempt failed!!! I spent most of my time clubbing, shopping, eating, facebook-ing, updating my blog and doing nuthing. What's worst, I took half a day today googling where to stay in tioman instead as Hon-En dragged me to this very last minute travel. If all goes well, I am going to Tioman 2nd June till 4th! Ive mixed feelings, excited coz I can travel to the beachside and a lil awkward coz Hon-En is not my boyfriend and neither has he tried and has the intention to go after me. Well, I can't complain much as its an all expense paid trip, what more can I ask for? ;)

He is a real good catch, that is the case if you are the girl who can tolerates steady and boring lifestyle. He has successful career = great future, and he is the only guy that I know who are very less likely to cheat on his girlfriend. The only drawback is he is too reserved and quiet, not my type! :(

Hon-En aka Timber (coz he is so quiet and reserved) and me. I think I look way slimmer back then. Pix taken in Dec 2010 if im not mistaken!

Oh, apart from taking my times searching for where to stay in Tioman, there is a newsfeed on fb of a mutual friend of me and my bastard ex bf. There are some pix of them running on a Ekiden race, honestly I wasnt stalking on my ex-bf, it just happened that it popped-up and I clicked on it. Oh speaking of race, I've registered for Standard Chartered KL 10km run, Feel Good 7km run and Shape 12.3km run! There is this unexplained tendency of mine to start getting back on track of my healthy and active lifestyle. Thumbs up to myself! I'm imagining wine glasses clinking and me downing a glassful of Moet & Chandon to celebrate my one step closer to the healthier and hopefully slimmer me! =)

My bastard ex-bf looks old, haggard and an obvious cheap investment and maintainance of his haircut from the pix his friend posted on fb. Gosh, now I've to agree with my gf Yvonne Chong that he does look like a construction worker. Hmm.. looking at him, deteriorating in terms of style, appearance and catching up on age... this kinda made my day!

Happy Wednesday, with love,
Kelly H.

Yuckily Disgusting being

Men... Oh men... I notice all of them share the same attribute.... that is the tendency to cheat!
My ex boyfriends all cheated on me, n now some married old uncle is going after me. Worst still, he is so confident to get me, simply because he is loaded. Yesh, he is one filthy rich old man who cheats on his wife alot.

I find self-confidence attractive but arrogance turns me off! He is so arrogant thinking that I am like those other sluts he dated, thinking that as long as he is willing to showers me with gifts, cash, free ride on his nice cars, fine dining date me at luxurious restaurant n bla bla bla I'l give in. Go dream on!
Truth is, I can't even bear to go out and be seen with this man!
I think once I step out from his car, people wil prolly see me as a whore, to be in a flashy car with an old man. LOL

Its so depressing, everyone cheats! what happened to those monogamous marriage? How can I ever have faith and trust to get married when everyone that I know involves in extramarital affairs?! :(

Self Love

It was such a success, I shed 2kgs in a day by goin to the gym and burnt 500cals on the cardio workouts, post gym swimming session and 30 sit ups... and by the end of the day I was too tired to eat!

I can still feel the muscle pain on my abs, whenever I sneeze, cough or laugh it gives me pain! :( but come to think of it, 2kgs very well worth it!!!!!! :)

Its my 3rd day of my weight loss plan. I'm so starving but can't think of anything healthy yet tasty to eat. Thus, I decided to cook for myself.
Haven't been cooking for quite awhile... I guess the last time I cooked was prolly a 10 months back.
I used to cook alot for my bastard ex, as the old saying goes, the way to a man's heart is through his stomach... And I have to say... no matter how narcisstic it sounds, cooking is my forte. He loves my cooking alot too, no matter how big the portion, he could always finished it. I fed him well, with good food, my seductive body and unconditional love only to get cheated on in the end... The world is always very unfair and ridiculous. Nothing ever makes sense!

Since I'm broke and I'm trying to lose weight...
I'm cooking myself an oyster porridge with preserved vegetables and anchovy as a sideline. :)

I wish I could post the pix here but the SD card disappoints me :( Maybe next time, coz I really need to start eating now already.
LOL

Signing off,
Starving Kelly <3

Self Governing!!!

Been spending alot.. like really alot lately...
it costs me rm897 for my Dior skincare and cosmetics that I bought last Wednesday,
PD trip = rm 150
Random Karaoke session with Chicken, Peacock, and Mice last nite = rm 56
Dresses frm Zara = rm 362
All of the above are only my spending for a week!!!! Do the calculation... If this continues, I can never get my one way tix to London and start travelling arnd Europe next year!

I seriously need to psycho myself to be more disciplined to lose weight so that I can start doin some modeling jobs and earn some $ for my hairdo... n bla bla bla...gosh i can find 100 ways to spend but none to earn! This is super depressing! :(

Thank Larry for being so generous lately, bought shanny and me dinners and drinks!

Wednesday night at Twenty one BSC, its ladies nite, so I gt free flow of cocktails... and uh... Larry and an British friend bought me 4 jagerbombs too!

Camwhoring with Larry aka Geylang @Zouk on a random saturday night
p.s. I love my curls, 2.5hrs of dressing up is kinda well worth it :)

I'll be going for Afrojack @Zouk this coming wednesday and after that I shud control myself for not going out that often anymore... at least until my exam ends... on 21st June!

I'm reading Marguerite Duras's 'The Lover' for one of my exam preparation and turns out that its a real good autobiography. This woman has been through so many significant events in her life, its understandable why she was someone very prominent back then. I highly recommend this autobiography novel to all of u even its for leisure reading. :)

Till then, wish me luck for my upcoming exam! I need heaps of it! xoxo

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Lascivious

I was starving myself mad while waiting for ma gurls to meet me for dinner and drinks @ twenty one kitchen and bar, Changkat. Fanna promised to meet me at 6pm, and guess what she arrived in changkat at 8pm!!! Shanny was even worse, she came around 9ish... While waiting... This is what I've got for u, if ur reading this...

Multitaskin: Camwhoring, Facebooking and Twitter-ing all at once! LOL

I actually intended to leave my long hair straight... but since I was ready by 5.30pm and I know the girls will be super late... I must well spend more time to beautify myself. Afterall 40mins is not that long to curl my hair as I really like the way I look after that additional 40mins investment of time. :)

Its ladies nite every Wednesday, free flow of cocktails for the ladies starts from 9pm till midnite. Being the alcoholic me, I drank... like 15... errr.... I think I lost count of the number of glasses that I've drained!
Spotted some very cute angmohs and there is one particular blonde that I was really attracted to, he has the bad boy macho kind of look and I kept telling my gf how much I would love to know him... The min I told them... they labelled me as a slut! LOL... I do notice this too, ever since my break up, well... I wouldnt say that I'm like a slut, but rather... I keep an open mind, afterall I'm single and ready to mingle.
 I was so tipsy by the end of the nite that I can't even walk straight! But I must say, that was the greatest wednesday nite this year with total of RM70 spent only!...
Hmm... Maybe I should really hang out at this place with the same crazy bunch more! =)

New Fun Way to meet the Eligible Singles

I'm so frustrated with ex boyfriends and guys who are out on a few dates with me... they are all the wrong one for me!
Its so hard to find the right one, the one who makes u laugh, reads ur mind and understands you better than you do, sensitive, loving, caring.... omg... the list can goes on forever....
Okay, I have to confess, I'm really picky when it comes to committing myself into a relationship. Truth is, I don't know exactly what I want. Here, I find trial and error works in finding... or perhaps I should say lead me closer to my Mr. Right.
Problem is, where can I find guys for the trial and error session? Don't tell me in clubs, as I've been consistently out in the clubbing scene for months and I can never meet any boyfriend material guy... they are all playas, bastards, man whore!
I signed up for muay thai, capoeira and muay boran class.... those are all male dominated forms of workout... but still... I have no mood to socialize when I'm all wet with my sweats during and after workout!
How about online dating? Hell no, tell me about browsing the profile of the singles online and meeting guys online judging based on their chosen pictures (havent u heard that pix can be really deceiving?)... these spell failure to me!

But.... what do u think of speed dating?! Table for 10, 8, 6? where u go for a dinner date with at least 3 different guys altogether... in a low pressure, and personalised form of dating and meeting new friends....At a very reasonable price.. these chances are made possible with a set dinner inclusive! Come'on, how else can u date so many guys simultaneously? U just have to dress up for once... and it similarizes you goin out on 3 dates with 3 different guys in the same 2 hours of dinner date! So much of make up, and dressing up efforts saved! At least the chances of u meeting the decent ones are higher here as compared to those guys u meet in clubs, and online!

Holla me, if ur interested.... Chocolovey provides the arrangement and fixing you up on a date with at least 3 of the opposite gender... if things can't develop further... what harms can it be to get to know more friends?
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Emotional the winner, rational the loser~

Omg!
As in really OMG!
Seeing him and reading those emails are not helping. Its so unhealthy that it makes me back in love with him, ive to say this time!
To my surprised when I was rearranging my email folders, I found the lil folder that I created long ago named "Rupert Chen", gosh... I don't even remember I created it. Reading every single emails made me realize how much have I grown up from an innocent lil gal to somewhat more intelligent, sophisticated, classy young lady now. But it also triggers my emotion, I can bet my life that he has deleted all my emails to him long ago. The contents from him are so loving... it almost manages to made me cry for happiness. I wonder what he sees in me back then.. those things that I wrote are so immature.

The one that I wrote about my suspicion of my pregnancy and his replies... got me weak. The more I read and recall back our memories together, the more I want him back. I'm thinking if the feeling is mutual. My mission when I meet him next is to find out what he feels for me now, and whats the reason of him asking me out lately, its that out of his boredom? out of lust? out of friendship... friends with benefits? or the same way I feel for him now...? Its gonna be tough, but Ive learn not to give up things and people that I love.

We will see...

Its still for him

It is still for him....
For him, I rescheduled my planned activities,
For him, I skipped my Uni's cultural night so that he could ask me out if he wants to,
For him, I told everyone that I am not free this weekend so that I could give him all my time,
For him, I got disappointed when he fails to turn up,
For him, I weep!

And all I got is a simple text message, telling me again and again for two days in a row that he can't make it because he was stuck in the jungle the 1st day during his hike, and he has a family gathering on the next day.

But everytime he stands me up, he will make sure he tells me when is the nxt time he would love to see me. This gives me a false hope, that he doesnt sees me as just a friend, as he constantly tries to make up for me, i.e. he just promises to buy movie tix for the both of us, n dinner & drinks on him this coming wednesday. I think that I am experienced enough to see and determine what is pure friendship and whats not.

The more we contact each other, the more I want him back. Thank God for my ego and great selective memory. What he did to me, how he gave up on our relationship, how sulky he made me feel back then stops me from showing him that I still care, I still love, and I miss him.

Nostalgia

I'm in a shittiest situation once again after so long! I thought that i've moved on... but a nite out... after our break up, proves me wrong!
I've tried so hard to suppressed myself from falling back to him, by reminding myself how much a bastard he used to be when we were together. How he said mean words to me on purpose just to hurt my feelings. How much he made me feel so stressful and at one time suicidal when I was with him and after our relationship.
But damn, I'm experiencing this bittersweet longing for him again aft spending the whole nite with him at his place! It was great catching up for dinner, and initially I felt comfy with him around, but nothing sexual and romantic... it was very much like a night out with a long time friend. It was a wrong decision that I;ve made to agree to go to his place for drinks.

The moment when he looked at me straight in the eyes, when we were lying on the floor together, I knew I'm in trouble cause my heart was pumping so fast!The moment when we talked about what happened back then in our relationship.. after 8 months of our break up still made me weep. The moment he kissed me, it all tells me that I've not gotten over him, the desire of longing for him, wasnt disappear, it was just merely repressed. The moment we make out and make love, got me so emotionally depressed now because I know we can never be together again, and what's worst, I miss being with him. I miss having him around, I miss being in a relationship with him. I MISS HIM!

Gifts... =)

Its one last day that I got to see bff Jessicat before she leaves to Penang for Chinese New Year. Have been thinking where should we spend the Friday nite together for quite some time. Our initial plan was to have shisha session at Pavillion after watching "The Green Hornet" as I have been longing to watch that show, which then switched our plan to club at Velvet. And at about 3-4pm, Jessicat changed her mind again, so we ended up Shisha-ing @ Tarbush, Sunway Pyramid until 1am and proceed to join my other friends at @live.

The moment we stepped into Tarbush, all the guys were perving at us, as we are the only Asian chicks around. Although I am quite used to men's attention (be it good or bad), I must say, it made me feel very uncomfortable as these Middle Eastern men scanned us from head to toes, it felt like some sort of sexual harrassment to me for the very first time.
Shisha Lounge @ Solaris Mont Kiara definitely wins hands down in terms of price, services and coziness as compared to this big and famous Tarbush.

I have been to @live twice and I know it is a crappy place with live band performances with ahbengs and ahlians crowd. But since Tarbush close at 1am and I had a few friends invited me to join them at @live, I went there after shisha-ing as the night was still very young! :P
Though I hate the live band performances alot, the vocalist and guitarist caught my attention, both of them are so good looking, handsome and hunky! Ohmy, after being perved at Tarbush, its my time to revenge on guys, I was staring the whole time they were performing and I almost drool just by checking them out. Seriously! LOL

Other than the both of them, @live is still one of the crappiest place to be to me. It's just not that type of place that I would chill, not even when all expense are paid to be there! What else more is better to do than to cam-whore when d party is so horrendous...? ;)

Fyi, when I go for clubbing I will not leave until the club close at 3am... but with the awful music played at this place, I can't help but to leave earlier at about 2.10am.

I hop into Jessicat's car and made her send me to mine as it was kinda creepy to walk by myself at that time with so many niggas around at that area. Guess what? Once I hopped into Jessicat's car, she gave me a nicely wrapped box of gifts! Its so sweet of her, this is why I keep reminding myself, friend comes before boyfriend/husband!

A surprise gift from Jessicat =)

Guess what's inside....

A VIP member card to the Ministry of Sound Euphoria, a free 3weeks pass and a single personal training session to the celebrity fitness, a body lotion from L'ocitanne, and a Sexy car plate for the sexy me. =)
Thanks hun!

The last I followed the tradition to write chinese new year greeting cards, I was at about 8-9 years old, and since then I only send e-cards and sms-es to wish my friends and family. That's why I was shocked to received one from Jessyca when I meet her for dinner last week.

See the way she addresses me...?
Can't see...?

See?!!!
Its Hot Babe, and yes that is how my bff calls me, hot babe... that's me! :P



Read those messages in the card... Aww... so sweet...
I hope her wishes come true too =)

See how good friends can really made my life a brighter one?!

My dear good friends... I want to watch The Green Hornet and Burlesque very badly... When will you all be around to go for a movie outing together? ;)