Omg!
As in really OMG!
Seeing him and reading those emails are not helping. Its so unhealthy that it makes me back in love with him, ive to say this time!
To my surprised when I was rearranging my email folders, I found the lil folder that I created long ago named "Rupert Chen", gosh... I don't even remember I created it. Reading every single emails made me realize how much have I grown up from an innocent lil gal to somewhat more intelligent, sophisticated, classy young lady now. But it also triggers my emotion, I can bet my life that he has deleted all my emails to him long ago. The contents from him are so loving... it almost manages to made me cry for happiness. I wonder what he sees in me back then.. those things that I wrote are so immature.
The one that I wrote about my suspicion of my pregnancy and his replies... got me weak. The more I read and recall back our memories together, the more I want him back. I'm thinking if the feeling is mutual. My mission when I meet him next is to find out what he feels for me now, and whats the reason of him asking me out lately, its that out of his boredom? out of lust? out of friendship... friends with benefits? or the same way I feel for him now...? Its gonna be tough, but Ive learn not to give up things and people that I love.
We will see...
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